Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Mrs Justa and the pathway of life

Life is a road, a path sometimes an interstate. Life goes on until it doesn't. I find that comforting yet scary in a way.A forest path in Redwoods State Park, California. I sometimes find the pathway with a "T" in the path, and sometimes it is a total intersection. I wonder what makes me determine the path to take, the road to follow. What if I had not taken that path, would the other way end up intersecting with the way I chose down the road further?

I was visiting Mark this afternoon, and I began to think about the paths we have chosen and roads we have traveled. I was observing the people as I drove up there,  all who have different life pathways, and are where they are because of directions in crossroads that they or other folks took.

Each person has a story, each life is special to at least one other person. Each of us had a mom and dad, no matter what we felt of the mom and dad, at one point those people were filled with wonder about what their child would be like.(courtesy of windows vista)We are each here because of the choice our parents made on their own path of life.

We all came into this world innocent, with a life pathway that was many lengths, many bumps, some very smooth. What happened in the pathway to rob us of our innocence, to harden us. I don't understand. IS it that the people and incidents we have been exposed to have made us more cynical at times? Or is it that we have been treated poorly that has made us bitter?004

Life's pathway choices are not only for people, all life forms take paths, and the road chosen will either direct them to a positive or a negative experience, to a more comforting or more challenging future. If these geese choose the wrong pathway, it could be fatal for them.

I know not where the current path I am on is leading to, nor do I know what lies ahead for Mark, I believe it will be less bumpy then the part we are on right now. I do know the choice he took right now was a wise choice, to be stabilized on meds  in an in patient setting, and get in control of the direction he is heading on the path, instead of the path taking control. Does that make sense? So my thought is to be careful at the intersection, make sure that you think before you make your choices, and enjoy the walk down the path of your life. You can not turn back, you must keep going forward, find peace, watch for holes, find that beam of light. May God Bless you all, Cindy


Joe said...

I'm sorry to hear you guys are having such a trying time. I want you guys to know that you'll get through this if you persevere. It reminds me of a very trying time in my own life. When my wife was pregnant with our second daughter, her water broke at 29 weeks. Long story (somewhat) short, She spent 2 weeks on bed rest at the hospital before giving birth to our daughter 9 weeks premature. We were incredibly lucky and our daughter only needed 5 weeks in the NICU. When we brought her home we had to feed her with a syringe, because 20 cc's of baby formula was all her tiny stomach could hold. And even then she had to have a calorie enhancer added to it that would make her stop breathing if she ate too fast. We had to monitor her and tickle her feet to "wake her up" to start breathing again. It was an incredibly difficult time.

Last weekend, at a picnic, a friend asked me how we did it. I thought about it for a few seconds and said, "We just did."

Looking back, I can say that we didn't think about how we'd get though it, we just did. We knew that failure was not an option and we would do whatever we had to, day by day, until she grew enough and worked through her issues.

Today I am glad to say that she is a happy and healthy (and all too stubborn!) typical 2 year old. And I wouldn't have it any other way.

So, hang in there, do what you need to do and you'll work through this. Someday, you'll look back and ask your selves, "how did we get through all of the side effects, anxiety and stress all while we were making the move?" And you'll know that you just did.

Stephany said...

Sending good thoughts your way, it will be ok.

Mark Krusen said...

Joe, How very right you are! I keep telling Mark it will get better, that he needs to use my vision because his is foggy. My phrase of the month is.. it is what it is, and we take each step one after another.
Your sharing of your daughters birth and the challenges. Thanks Cindy