Something I've come to realize lately

I think I miss driving my big truck! I can't believe I'm typing this.I left it on so it must be real. Don't get me wrong I don't miss at all the time away from home, (Can't ever get that back)the dirty bathrooms, the receivers or shippers that just didn't get it and lots of other stuff that I  don't dwell on.  But one of the biggest things I miss is handling that big truck in traffic and backing in and all the stuff that is a challenge driving a truck. The feeling of accomplishment of delivering a load safely and on time. The not having a boss looking over your shoulder was kind of nice also. I was pretty anal about being on time. I would say my on time percentage was 99.9%. Being late was never an option. I think I can count on one hand the number of times I was ever late for an appointment.

I drove for 27 years with one accident that happened after 26 years of driving. It wasn't my fault.(I know we all say that) But it wasn't. The little ole lady driving the car that just panicked and pulled right in front of me on 81 North as a wicked rain storm was hitting in Scranton Pa. It ruined my day and her and her friends I'm sure. Luckily they weren't hurt just shook up. I did push them down the road sideways for a bit before I could get stopped. I was pretty shook up too. Luckily the truck wasn't damaged at all. Just a slight crinkle in the bumper. I was driving a Swift truck with over 200,000 miles on it so it had seen a few dings and such before I got it.

My Bipolar disorder (that's right,it all mine you can't have it) seems to be at bay right now. My highs haven't been to high and my lows haven't been to low. The Wellbutrin I'm on keeps me just this side of depression usually. It's interesting being in tune with your body, both physically with what I put in it and emotionally with how I'm feeling. I used to just sort of glide through life taking my health and well being for granted. Years of doing that takes a toll doesn't it?

On my weigh in this morning I lost a few more lbs I'm down to 239.4. The fat is just melting off my body. I'm not complaining.  I have really been  weak and tired the last 3 or 4 days though. I think I've lost some muscle mass. Not that I was every muscular it's just that I think I've done to much cardio. I've cut my cardio in half. Today at Golds I did about 4 miles on the bike which is a little more than I meant to do but the Yankee game was on TV. When that's on I can pedal for ever it seems. I had to force myself to get off after 4 miles. I did some lower body work on the weights as yesterday was upper body. I really didn't feel like going. But as normal I felt great after the workout. Oh yeah I got about 20 min work out in the pool to. My breathing on the 4th stroke is still a little off but it's better than when I first started.

Momma and I went out to breakfast alone this morning. Shawn and Pat had other things going on. So we went out on our own. I got a to die for 3 egg Omlet with Broccoli, Cheese and bacon. I even had home fries for the first time in a long time.Finished it off with wheat toast dry. We didn't go out until about noon so it was lunch and breakfast combined.  Tomorrow we're going out to breakfast with Shawn and Pat again. I'll get another omlet I'm sure. I'll probable leave the home fries out though.

Busy day!!

  After getting momma off to work this morning I went down to the gym for my workout. Did some Cardio a few machines and a lot of work in the pool. The workout really wiped me out. I got home played catch with Indy leaned back in the chair and passed out for two hours. It worked out pretty good. By time I woke up the lawn had dried up from the overnight dew and I was able to get the mower out.

 

This is my mower. I don't know what I'd do without this thing. The yard is to big to mow by hand. It takes me two hours to mow with the rider. You should see me when I get off the mower I can hardly walk for about 10 minutes. After I stretch a little I'm able to mow with the push mower under and around the bushes. I didn't used to be able to do this. So there is some improvement there. But by time I'm done with that I'm pretty much done physically. It is getting better because of my time at the Gym but I have to realize my limitations still.

I'm down to 240 lbs today. Weigh in day isn't until Saturday and I'm down 1.6 lbs from last Saturday. I've started backing down my cardio on the bike to 2.5 miles and on the rowing machine 5 minutes. I've been trying to pick up the pace a little on the weight training.

Our friends that we go to breakfast with on Saturdays came over with Dunkin Donuts coffee and a Apple and Spice donut for each of us.I had enough room with my calories tonight so the donut fit right in. It tasted darn good too.

The Yankees won tonight. Life is good.