Saturday, June 5, 2010

Something I've come to realize lately

I think I miss driving my big truck! I can't believe I'm typing this.I left it on so it must be real. Don't get me wrong I don't miss at all the time away from home, (Can't ever get that back)the dirty bathrooms, the receivers or shippers that just didn't get it and lots of other stuff that I  don't dwell on.  But one of the biggest things I miss is handling that big truck in traffic and backing in and all the stuff that is a challenge driving a truck. The feeling of accomplishment of delivering a load safely and on time. The not having a boss looking over your shoulder was kind of nice also. I was pretty anal about being on time. I would say my on time percentage was 99.9%. Being late was never an option. I think I can count on one hand the number of times I was ever late for an appointment. Inside 2000 Mack Vision

I drove for 27 years with one accident that happened after 26 years of driving. It wasn't my fault.(I know we all say that) But it wasn't. The little ole lady driving the car that just panicked and pulled right in front of me on 81 North as a wicked rain storm was hitting in Scranton Pa. It ruined my day and her and her friends I'm sure. Luckily they weren't hurt just shook up. I did push them down the road sideways for a bit before I could get stopped. I was pretty shook up too. Luckily the truck wasn't damaged at all. Just a slight crinkle in the bumper. I was driving a Swift truck with over 200,000 miles on it so it had seen a few dings and such before I got it. 1994 Peterbilt

My Bipolar disorder (that's right,it all mine you can't have it) seems to be at bay right now. My highs haven't been to high and my lows haven't been to low. The Wellbutrin I'm on keeps me just this side of depression usually. It's interesting being in tune with your body, both physically with what I put in it and emotionally with how I'm feeling. I used to just sort of glide through life taking my health and well being for granted. Years of doing that takes a toll doesn't it?

On my weigh in this morning I lost a few more lbs I'm down to 239.4. The fat is just melting off my body. I'm not complaining.  I have really been  weak and tired the last 3 or 4 days though. I think I've lost some muscle mass. Not that I was every muscular it's just that I think I've done to much cardio. I've cut my cardio in half. Today at Golds I did about 4 miles on the bike which is a little more than I meant to do but the Yankee game was on TV. When that's on I can pedal for ever it seems. I had to force myself to get off after 4 miles. I did some lower body work on the weights as yesterday was upper body. I really didn't feel like going. But as normal I felt great after the workout. Oh yeah I got about 20 min work out in the pool to. My breathing on the 4th stroke is still a little off but it's better than when I first started.

Momma and I went out to breakfast alone this morning. Shawn and Pat had other things going on. So we went out on our own. I got a to die for 3 egg Omlet with Broccoli, Cheese and bacon. I even had home fries for the first time in a long time.Finished it off with wheat toast dry. We didn't go out until about noon so it was lunch and breakfast combined.  Tomorrow we're going out to breakfast with Shawn and Pat again. I'll get another omlet I'm sure. I'll probable leave the home fries out though.


Stephany said...

I think the workouts help immensely with feeling good. I can feel like I'm scraping bottom and go on a walk and it clears my mind and reduces anxiety.

I thought about you the day I drove in the wicked storm and saw over turned trucks like yours, it was really awful. I saw other big rig drivers pull over in the middle of one of the sides of the freeway (both sides had massive pile ups all at once)and check on the ones that were on their sides. It's like a family is what I thought.

Way to go on the weight loss, incredible!

Mark Krusen said...

I was inspired by your post describing your walks. I remember how hard you said it was but you still pushed through.

Yes when the chips are down and people get in accidents or in a real jam with something. The better side of humanity usually shows up. It ain't as much like a family out on the road as it used to be but there are those out there that remember those days. But they are few and far between.

Stan said...

Speaking of home fries, you have been honored once again @ some prestigious blog. I bet your hit count will go though the damned roof, just like when that old lady you ran down head went through her car roof lol...

what's your special bipolar anywise? a one legged high jumper with a bad attitude lol.......

Mark Krusen said...


Not everyone with Bi-Polar walks around with their head up there ass.

What prestigious blog?

Stephany said...

Humor gets me through the dark times!