Tuesday, June 17, 2008

I'm justa hanging around, sort of!!

image It's time for me to do another post. As I sit here at the computer I'm not quite sure of what to type. I don't want to talk about the house yet. There are some daily changes going on, somethings that I had to chase down yesterday that I could talk about. I could go into detail how had we not checked the back line of the property against the back line of where the house was going to go was about 3 ft too close that we would have had a major problem. But I don't really want to talk about that now. (We did get the problem fixed thanks to Earl.) He called the Surveyor and they came out and marked the line. We were indeed off by 3 feet. So Earl got his dozer out and essentially moved the pad about 4 feet to the where the back line is now 51ft 9 in away from the back line. We wanted to to move it enough to where it definitely was away from the line. I could have blogged about this some but didn't want to bore you.

I could tell you how Bob from G&I homes is coming out Tuesday (today) and finishing up the sites prep work. He is going to grade a little more, Smooth the site out some than get the site ready for the concrete to be poured possibly on Wednesday. The town code officer has to come out and inspect the site before they pour the cement. This is a good policy as Earl didn't wait on the site that he was preparing for the home he bought from us and went ahead and poured the pad and it didn't meet code. He now has to seek a variance from the town. I could have blogged some about this.

I could tell you that my Bipolar is really cycling fast. Up and down. Mornings are my best time and afternoon and early evenings are my worst.I feel like I'm in this fog that just won't lift. As the day goes on it just gets worse and worse. Some of the side effects are starting to diminish. My body seems to be getting use to the Lithium. The Tingling feeling in my arms and hands is kind of disconcerting. Not having the psych Dr. to call is a little bit of a problem too. I don't know what we are going to do about that. I am scheduled to see the one Dr. from Oswego in August still. I was hoping to see someone before then. I could have blogged some about this.

But in reality this is about all I can manage today. Energy level is low and my Spirit is weaker. I feel like I'm on this Island of negativity. I'm generally a happy go lucky kind of guy. At least I'd like to think I am any way. I just ain't got it in me to dig down and find the color in things around me. It all justa feels kind of gray right now. Check in with a couple of my blogging buddies. They too are going thru some rough times right now. PresciousRock has found the energy to post 51 things that she likes check them out Here. And my buddy Stan has some important things to say about the state of Mental health in this country check out his post waking up with a yawn. I'll try to post again soon.


justana said...

Dear Mark,
I know you're a happy go lucky kind of guy.
I've see how you are always having funny remarks here and in other buddies blogs.
However it's impossible not to feel optimistic when you're not feeling fine and you take a med that not only have side effects but it's a trial.
Being on a drug that you are not sure that will work or not, requires a long time to have good effects is quite an ordeal.
I'm very sorry you're going to all of these.

Anonymous said...

wow...hey mark when it all is crashing down it is important to look for the positives...and when there are no positives...always remember that you are loved...that may be the only positive you have but a building starts with a single block...a path starts with a single step...when it all seems shitty i remember that i am loved...it gives me a warm pit....i can't help but smile...it may be all i have got at the moment but it is a start...like the american army on D-day it is a beach head...a place to start...
now as far as the house goes...3 inches...who the hell cares about 3 inches...man some regulations are stupid...who thinks of this shit...50 feet seems plenty far enough to me...dumb regulations....
i must admit that earl is the man....with a bulldozer you can solve allkinds of problems....my devorce would have been alot smoother with a big dozer in the parking lot..."what is that your honor???? she gets everything ???and where is your house????ya thats my dozer....oh you want to change your decission...cool" thanks for the vine

Mark Krusen said...

Tom, You should never be allowed to even look at a bulldozer up close.

Mark Krusen said...

Thanks Ana, It is kind of crazy continuing on a drug without being under a drs. care. I don't know what else to do though. My primary Dr. will give me the blood test and follow me until I get another Psych dr. I hope I don't have to wait until August 10th though.

justana said...

Hi Mark,
Hope you're fine.

preciousrock said...

Mr. Krusen,
I'm very concerned about you! You really need to see a doctor before August. That's almost two months away. This is important. Get someone on the horn and figure it out, do you hear me?? Don't risk your health and mental well being. Thanks for linking to my 51 things. I had to do something while I was sitting around feeling sorry for myself in all this pain, and I didn't want to WHINE! What does your wife think of all this waiting around to see a doc? Maybe a woman needs to take the basket by the handles and get this thing going?!