Justa putting one foot in front of the other right now!

I continue to feel somewhat down.

I don't want to belabor the point but my Abilify experiment is not working. My taking it every other day at a half dose is still grogging me out during the day. My moods are swinging back and forth on a daily basis and the "Foggy" feeling is around all the time now. I don't feel like I'm having any times of clarity. I understand from my wife that a name of a Psychiatrist has been submitted to the insurance company for me to go see in Oswego Ny. I'll let you know how that goes when and if I start seeing him. I feel like I'm going to need to switch medicines. For those of you doing the medicine game how many different ones have you taken over time to get to where you are now?

The Lime Green Drama Queen is over for the night

We were so busy last night that she and I didn't even have the time or the inclination to do a post together like we have in the past. After picking her up from her house yesterday at 3:00 pm. We came back to our house and did her homework. By time we warmed up some Goulash for dinner and tossed together a salad it was time to take off for her Concert at 7:30. She plays the Clarinet in her school's band. She, to say the least is less than excited to be playing the instrument. She says she wants to quit playing but her dad won't let her yet. We'll see where that goes. The band sounded good from where I was sitting. As you can tell from this picture Courtney's a looker. Watch out Dad there are going to be a line of guys beating down your door for a date with your daughter when she gets older. Court Court as she likes to call her self is a little down right now. Maybe it is something in the air. A lot of people seem to be down right now.

Speaking of being down

Billary must be feeling a little down right now after her whoopin in North Carolina. She won by a slim margin in Indiana and vows to continue on. Rush Limbaugh will be happy. The Chaos that is the Dumocratic primaries rolls on. This battle for the parties nomination is helping deflect the scrutiny that would be dumped on McCain right now. I don't really care which one of the two of them win. Barrack or Billary. They are pretty much non choices for me. I would have to choose none of the above if they were my only choice in the election. That's just me. Others of you may have your opinions. If you feel like sharing them feel free to comment below.

I'm going to keep it short this morning.

Those of you following along with the blog. Thank you. It helps me keep posting knowing some one is reading any way. The daily hit count on the Bravenet stat counter on the bottom right tells me that I'm getting an average of 7 new hits a day with an average of 4 returning visitors.3407 people have hit on the site since I set this blog to type. Thanks again for checking in. If you feel so inclined to comment.  Feel free to do so.

43 Things Tags: Another rant Bipolar disorder,Drama Queen

Justa really big project I've signed us up for here.

With the upcoming move. I'm starting to feel overwhelmed a little bit. There is an awful lot of stuff that has to be done. We've done a lot already. I'll list below what we have accomplished so far. I won't even attempt to put them in order.

1. Checked out the land 3 or 4 times to make sure it's what we want. After all we have to live there for 30 years.
2. We put a deposit of $500.00 on the new Double wide that is sitting at the dealers now. Gave them $125.00 more for the DMV registration. (Isn't that crazy we have to register it with DMV, can you say revenue enhancement)Cha Ching.
3. Went to the Post office to pick up change of address cards. We have to remember to turn our keys in for the PO box we have been using for the last few years.
4. Went to Wally world looking for a mail box. They are all kinds of cheap(must be the Chinese's don't get rural mail delivery). We decided to go to Home Depot to see what they have.Jeff said they have a pretty good choice there.Cha Ching
5. Went to Town of Granby town offices to get a permit for the house. That has to be gotten before they can move the house onto the land.The cost of this is going to be a couple of hundred  dollars. Cha Ching
6. Called Sue from the Realty Company to set up an appointment for Thursday to sign the paperwork on the land purchase offer. I'm sure that will cost us some up front money.Cha Ching
7. Started telling friends and relatives of impending move. This one seems more like it will happen than the last one we were planning. Much better situation all the way around for us.
8. Talked to a guy about moving our shed. It's a 12ft by 16 ft 81/2 ft high beast. So it will cost us $300.00 to move it 12 miles. Cha Ching.
9. Still have to figure out how to move our 1500 lbs of front steps. Anybody have any ideas. Cha Ching

I've probably left some things out the above is enough for a 3 or 4 day period any way.

 

Went to the Chiropractor today. It always feels better after I've seen him. But the adjustment doesn't last because of my convoluted gait when I walk. He gave me some exercises he wanted me to do on the machine at the gym. I will try to motivate myself to go this morning. I'm trying to do 20 minutes of cardio every time I go. The problem is I haven't gone in over a week again because of the pain in my leg and hip. It seems like a big circle I'm riding around with on this leg. If I don't work  it, it will hurt. If it hurts, I can't work it. Oh well. I'm home every night with Momma. That is the important thing.

Your not going to believe it. We drove up to the land again today to see what it looked like in the dark. We're crazy. When ever Cindy and I do anything that has a potential to be labeled crazy we call it "Mark & Cindy's excellent adventure" Guess what the land looked like in the dark. D-A-R-K is what it looked like. We will need to get some outside lights to see anything out there.

Justa driving around the town!

Man were we busy Saturday

We did every thing we said we were going to do and then some. Cindy took pictures of her friends baby. We visited with them a while in the late morning at Crouse Hospital where she took the pictures. We went off and did the rest of the days activities and returned back up to the hospital for Cindy to run upstairs and drop the pictures off. Her friend was quite pleased with the photo's. We would show them here but don't have permission to so you'll have to take my word for it that there are some neat pictures of the new family. She is definitely going to be a "Daddy's Girl" (laughs). And there ain't nothin wrong with that is there?

Jeff & Amanda have their new baby's room 99% done.

It is done in a baby snoopy theme. The colors of everything in the room match very well. Even the blanket that Grandma Cindy made match perfectly. How neat is that. Momma got some good pictures of the room. Jeff & Amanda feel much better getting that room done. If I was a baby boy I know I would like it. They seem to be down to 3 names for the baby. When we know what the name is we will let you know. Jeff and his buddy Justin are also just putting the finishing touches on the deck that they have been putting in. Can you tell Jeff is a "projects" kind of guy. He got that from his dad, not me. I'm a more "get out of projects kind of guy" if you know what I mean? Don't take me wrong. I'm not lazy. I just believe in spreading the wealth more. Jeff likes to do it himself.(which if I could do what he can do, I would too)Myself I will hire it done if I can afford it. If not then it ain't time to do it. Does that make sense?

We went out to the dealer in the morning to talk to Dan

and let him know about us wanting the one on their lot from before instead of a new ordered one. We really like the model is has a lot of things we really like. April one of  the managers of the G&I dealership in Cicero took us back through the model so we could do a "how would our stuff look in here" inspection of it because Dan was busy with another customer. It was funny, Dan was bringing another customer to show the house while we were sitting in there talking to April. He was kind of surprised to see us. To make a long story short he was going to make two sales that day. Ours without even trying that day(All though he has worked his but off up till now) and the girl he was showing homes to. If you are in the market to buy a modular or even a mobile home the salesman to see there is Dan Mayock. Tell him that Mark & Cindy sent you.

After seeing the baby up at the Hospital we came home

so I could take my hour or so nap that I need every afternoon and to pick up Indy the wonder dog. Than off to drive up to the lot we are buying and visualizing the home on it. We decided that it is indeed the lot we want. Sometime next week we will put in an official offer on the land and get this project kick started. Within a month or so we should be moved into our new home. Man do we have a lot of work to do to get ready.

Sunday turned out to be truly a day of rest.

Momma and I stayed home from church and we both took our respective me times during the day. I got my Sunday nap in after helping with some of the cleaning.(ok all I did was sweep the kitchen floor) it felt like work to me. As I'm finishing typing this post, it's Sunday at 1:45 pm. Momma is just finishing up lunch and we are getting ready to take Jeff & Amanda up to see the land we are buying. We will definitely know the way it will be about my 5th trip in the last week up there. We'll we went up to see the land, went to Wally world and then over to Jeff and Amanda's for dinner. Taco soup made by Amanda and a Taco salad made by momma.  Can you say delicious. Good time was had by all. Day of rest over. See ya 

43 Things Tags: driving,family having fun,seizing the day,walmart

Not justa nother boring Saturday!

This is day one of the new experiment in taking my Abilify 1/2 dose every other day. I am typing this at 3:30 am on Saturday morning. This is a slight improvement on my sleep pattern from a few days ago. I went to sleep last night at about 11:30 and woke up at 3:30 am. That's four hours in a row. Not bad for me. I'm going to type and publish this post and climb back into bed. Hopefully sleeping until at least 7:00am.

Today is going to be a busy day in JustaKrusenville. We have to go grocery shopping. That's right Save A Lot here we come. We might have to toss in a Wally world or P&C into the trip because of the things we can't get at Save A Lot.We are going to run back up to where the lots are and make sure of the one we want. Sue from the Realty company said there are a total of 8 lots available ranging in price from $20,000 for a small one at the front of the complex to $30,000 for some larger wooded ones down the road farther. One good thing is that the road is a dead end. So no thru traffic will be coming by at all hours of the day and night. The one we are seriously considering is about 1 acre costing $23,900. We are pretty excited about the possibilities and are justa trying to cross our T and dot the I's.

 

We also are going to go up to Crouse Hospital and visit a coworker of Cindy's. She just had a C-Section and wants Cindy to come up and take a few pictures of the baby. (See,Momma does a little bit of everything) Some time today speaking of babies, we are going over to Jeff & Amanda's and see the baby's new room that Jeff & Amanda have remodeled. Somewhere in here the next few days we have to start packing seriously as we may be moving within 30 days and if thats the case we have 17 years worth of  stuff to pack to move to the new house. Just the thought of that is a little over whelming. Good thing Momma is so organized and through when working on something. Those of you that work with her will know that from seeing her at work.

 

 

We finally sat down together last night and watched a movie. Of course Cindy was sewing something while watching the movie. As sit turns out I wish I was sewing instead of watching the movie.(And I don't even sew) We I hate to admit it watched the movie "Babel". It had Brad Pitt in it. To say the least the movie was under whelming. Not only did you have to listen to the foreign language which  I didn't speak, you had to read along with Mitch on the bottom of the screen. If I wanted to read a book I'd read a book. The Story line was pretty bazaar also. It made sense at the end because it all tied in, but I thought a couple of the stories were tossed in to the movie just for fill. I'm not a movie critic but I have to give this movie a "Don't bother" on the should I watch this movie scale. Justa my opinion.

Tomorrow is Sunday and I'm taking the day of from blogging again. I hope you had a great day on Saturday and a restful Sunday. We'll catch you back here on Monday bright and early. Don't forget to sign up for the email subscription to get each and every update mailed right into your inbox so you don't miss even one day of life with the Krusen's . Thanks for stopping by.

43 Things Tags: Bipolar,groceries,saving money,walmart

   

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Hang on,justa nother day in the life of...

 

What a difference a day makes!

I'm feeling much better this morning. I got a hold of Len my social worker. We are still in the process of getting me a Psychiatrist. But in the mean time we've determined that I shouldn't take the Risperdal at all. That is what made me depressed enough the last time to put me into enough of a tail spend to send me to CPEP. So now I'm going to be on half a dose of Abilify every other day. I will take 1/2 pill at night every other night. Len feels that that should cut way back on it making me drowsy. We shall see.

Those of you that have followed along for a while know

that we were in the market for a new double wide on land. You remember that the deal fell apart at the end because we were worried about the monthly cost being a little to much with my Workmen's Compensation not being settled yet. Well the Workmen's Comp isn't settled yet buy we believe the new package we found for land puts us much better off financially to go ahead with the deal based on saving quite a bit on the land package and Cindy getting another raise at work.

The land we found is just west of Fulton, Ny.

It is about 1/2 acre that already has the Septic,Electric, City water already hooked up and ready to go for $ 24,900. That would save us quite a bit on the set up compared to the last time we were looking at it. I saw this land yesterday while up to the Town of Granby offices checking on a permit for the deck we were looking at getting  installed for our current home here in the park.The only other thing we would have to do for land preparation would be to have a slab installed. That should  be about four or five thousand. So rough figures we should be able to get into the deal for almost $20,000 less than we would have before. That would be a number that we wouldn't be house poor or at least we wouldn't feel like we were. (laughing)

So we went back up to G&I homes last night.

Got there just before they closed. Dan our salesman from before was there and took us around to look at a few different homes including single wide's. The home we wanted that was on the lot before is still there also. We eliminated single wide's, they just seem to be set up differently then what we have become used to. Also the bedrooms were all just to small. So we think we have settled on a new one that we would have to order.It's a double wide model that they are just introducing to the public. It would be similar in size to the one we have now. We have some time to think about it. We aren't going to just jump in. We have a lot of research and checking around to do. Financing shouldn't be a problem as we were approved last time it should be just a matter of doing the paperwork. I'll keep you informed as things develop in our latest house buying saga. These pictures are current ones of our trailer now in the park that we haven't shown you yet. That bench is the one that momma bought me for a present a while back.

43 Things Tags: new home,saving money,seizing the day.

Justa hanging on! Sort of...

I wasn't going to do a post today. i am d

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today. That right down, feeling lousy, poor attitude,miserable, how low can you go down. But you know what. I had to post today didn't I? If I can get on this thing and spout off my words of wisdom when I'm up, I need to get on here and do the same when I'm down. At least that's the way I see it. I was going to let yesterday's post sit there for at least another day. I would get maybe my normal 10 or 15 hits a day and that would mean a few more people would read it that didn't get to yesterday. So I hope if you weren't here or even if you were and didn't read it that you take the time to scroll down and read it and maybe even put your two cents in if you feel so inclined. WE just have to get to the point where we put these things behind us and move on. That's my thinking on it anyway. What is yours?

I had to wake Momma up in the middle of the night to talk this morning. Just needed some company. That's how down I am. Some negative thoughts creeping in. I have to get involved with a support group of some kind where I can drop a dime at any time of the day or night so I don't wake Cindy up. I justa didn't feel like typing last night or early this morning. That's why the time on this post is so late compared to most other post I've done lately.

The Abilify was knocking me out, making me tired and foggy so I couldn't take it. Apparently the Risperdal ain't going to work either as my depression is starting to engulf me again. It is amazing how quick I can feel or not feel the effects of the medicines I'm taking. My mood is swinging really fast now from ok one part of the day to depressed the next. Something has to change or I will end up in CPEP again. If you've been reading this blog at all you'll know how I feel about that. CHECK THIS out if you want to see what I'm talking about.

I'm feeling so disconnected right now. I go to my favorite web sites and read the post and they don't inspire me like they normally do. Even two of my favorites Tom Stine.com and The Simple dollar.com can't inspire me. I have even debated on wether I should keep blogging or not again. That mood strikes me ever so often. That's why I forced myself to get on here and post today. Those of you with Depression or some other mood disorder will understand this post today. Others maybe not so much. Here's hoping you have a great day. I'm going to dig down deep and see if I can't salvage a reasonable day out of today.

The picture is a picture of my father in Nam when he was there the first time years ago.